long time no new post already...today this post is wrote while i was nothing going to do...this few weeks..my life just like a death people,but this death life is a happy life too..what i'm happy is now we all have freedom.no need to study for so long time,can sleep for long time too..and this few weeks,when i want ponteng i can just ponteng...haha....something funny right?!lols...by the way.i'm really not so like about my school plan..they call us went to school.bt there is no any chairs or tables for us to sit and at a comfortable place...waoh...the buttock was superb pain...although at school there is nothing for us to do.bt is it because too free,we felt more tired compare with at home..there are tv,bed,bathroom...haha....is the most thing i like nowadays....erm....looking around...nothing changed...but our PMR student's life will change for a few months,after that all will become normal again...and really don't know why my school will plan out all the plans there are so bore for us....like this just will affect on the kehadiran...don't know what they want and doing at all...but all this is nt the problem...forget about it...now the problem is....holidays is coming soon!!!what should i do in so many free days?gotta plan out a good plan...either hang out with a gang of good friend or going somewhere funny with my lovely family?haha.....all that i think i'll do it in my whole holiday time...watch out baby!!!!!

到了。。。

今年是2009年。也刚过了人生唯一的一天09.09.2009。时间过得真快，转眼间，年尾到来了。而我今年最重要的日子也即将来临了，也就是考试PMR。想起试考时的我，无可否认是我最发奋图强的一次。我努力温习，尤其是我最害怕的科目，历史。幸好拿回来的成绩也不算很差，总算没白费心机。

但这次不一样了。我寻寻觅觅，找不回好想拼搏的心情，感觉考完试考了，整个人都放松下来。。真的好想像以前那样，有爱上书的感觉。还剩三个星期而已，我该怎么办？今年能拿到好成绩吗？希望结果不会让大家失望。。。

明年会否是我从新开始的一年，我到现在都还搞不清楚，我是个犹豫的人。做了的决定，往往会改变。而在这件事里，我放不下的，是友情。。它对我很重要，是生命不可以缺少的。我现今的学校里，有一班感情好好的朋友，我们成天都走在一起。我向他们提过转校的事情，他们都要求我不要转，好不舍得。。分开了，想必以后也很少机会见面，很少联络，也不熟络了。

相同的，在我想转去的学校里，也有几个非常要好的朋友，还有的从小学就成为我人生里重要的角色的朋友，我想和他们读同一间学校，大家又整天打打闹闹的。。世界就是有不完美的事，唉。。天下无不散之筵席呀~我到底该选择那边？？好乱啊！！！

下星期，会参加表哥的结婚典礼，祝他们永远恩爱哦！相信他们会的，毕竟他们在09.09.2009那天注册，长长99。。。。

爱，想念的味道，记得。习惯。

爱

爱
是所有人追求又难求的
只是在爱之前
必须学会
拿和放


但我只学会了拿
却怎么也学不会放


所以

我
遍体鳞伤

想念的味道


第一次，
品尝这种味道，
有点讨厌，
苦苦的。

第二次，
品尝时，
已经无法脱离，
甜甜的。

到了第三次，
你身边多了一个人，
酸酸的。

第四次，
五味茶倒翻了，
辣辣的。

最后一次品尝，
嘴角多了一种液体，
咸咸的。

记得。习惯。

记得
第一次见面的悸动。

记得
你哭泣时的眼泪。

记得
你的笑容是多么灿烂。

记得
你所说的每句话。

无论开心的。伤心的。生气的。无厘头的。
我通通记得
通通都收藏着。

对你
已没有当初恋爱的感觉
对你
已没有当初想要更疼你的感觉。

渐渐的...
习惯一切应该习惯的
也
习惯一切不该习惯的

已经分不清楚
这...
到底是不爱了？还是习惯了？

我想...
答案已在我心里了。

haha.......cousin see it ......shy la....

my dear cousin ar......although know my secret alrdy,dun oways ask me lar....i noe hw to handle all the things de....jus puppy love ma....no nid think too much....i noe le....haha.....hw ab you..i'm waiting for my biao sao ooo......hehe.....i noe all things study nw come first....

until he tell me....my heart really broke ....

before this i think we two really can have a good future even is so much time.until he tell me,actually he not yet put down her,is her.my decision that start after all the stress exam is write...now i choose give him time and think who is the last answer...although i can give time,but at the same time,i feel so sad,he hope me don't mind,i said won't....but....thanks to him that be honest to me,but the feel really so sad...he said that the feel he can't put down for half a year already...but why he said all the things to me?my hope,my heart really broke painly...i know he was not lying to me,i hope can know the truth,but after that i found that me don't know what can i do...i scared the answer that he give me at the end.he said that he hope can put down the girl and start a new life,after all this.....a wall is between us....why?not yet start,but me already sad..at first what i think is all wrong..how can i face all this?he said don't know can maintain or not,reason is this...he reply me a mail...a question there"who you hope can see her now?" he write there...."is still her forever"..this sentence....
at the end,i promise he,if he can't,i'll let him go....
this is helping him or hurt myself...............?

深夜的。。

现在慢慢进入深夜了，好有感触的一晚。今天，坏心情，被骗了，骗了。。突然觉得好多事情都和我对抗，令我觉得这个世界，我的思想，所发生的事，好烦好烦。。我想要说，我想要说，不知道自己在想些什么，为什么自己的性格令人如此反感，好讨厌。想的事情，都想得很负面，我的问题，怎么办？谁？谁能帮我？
伤心，想哭，真的。。。
当自己一个人时，真的会不自觉想好多好多，想了总会心酸。。就像我的姓，辛。。什么也辛
辛苦，心酸，心痛。。
我活在什么世界？黑白的吗？
怎样面对一切，我不知道。。。。
输了，彻底的输了，输给自己。。
输给时间，输给思想。。
朋友告诉我，学习活在快乐中，我可以很快乐
但，快乐结束了，该继续的，还是要继续
还是要面对
这就是人。。。


*我知道伤心不能改变什么，那么让我诚实一点
诚实，难免有不能控制的宣泄
只要关上了门，不必理谁
一个人做在空荡包厢里面
手机，让它休息一夜
难，像切割切掉回忆的画面，
眼泪不能留过，十二点*

最近

最近的我，改变不大。多了好多事情，最近的心情也不会特别愉快。预考即将来临，我呢？完全还没准备好，没一科是读得完整的。我发现了一样东西，“无形的压力”。面对着预考与真正考试的我，无形的压力和我开始交起朋友。。我，想着，预考的成绩将会影响我转校的机会，我，面对真正的考试会否拿下优异的佳绩。好多好多事围绕着我。。。看着白板上一行行的字，好像都很爱我似的，都争先恐后地挤进我脑里，从今年开始，觉得老师所说的，所教的，都要把它们记在脑力，好痛苦啊。。早知如此，何必当初？好后悔当初无知的我，没好好的用功，如果每天秉持着读书，就算是那么一点的习惯，不会有今天的我。复制阿娇的一句话：“好天真，好傻”。哈哈！

明年，会是怎样的一年?感觉上，即将迈入人生成长的另一个过程，亲情，友情，好像要再加些新的东西。结果会是如何？？如果人都没烦恼，那该多好？情，亲情可贵，友情可惜，爱情呢？再想想，多几年，我们都大了，生活会是如何？大学生活？工作生活？学院生活？
明天和未来，那个先到？
珍惜眼前人，本人的座右铭，有谁未曾错过？

希望接下来的日子，闹钟的声音在我耳边旋转，缓缓地从那张温暖拥有少许余温的床，爬了起来。打开窗，我看见美好的世界，鸟儿们唱歌，寂寞的街灯也从此关上，人们都活的快乐。
期待。。。。。。。
还有我永远都爱的音乐，是我生活的主旋律。

these few days....

these few days my friend from Macau visited to my house n stay for some days.they all bcum so tall n looks like me so "short",kakaka......funny thing is they all smaller thn me....OMG.....hw??accept lar....n so cute their face.......n......


continue....

虽然事隔多日，但我还是坚持写它。。。

所谓的事当然就是我们的天王巨星micheal jackson逝世的消息。当我听到此事时，好惊讶哦。。。我对这位在乐坛上无人能比的巨星并不了解，但我毕竟还是会有伤心的感觉，好可惜哦。。他的一生是奇迹，历史，就这样的一个突发事件，把他从我们生活中，带走了。。。他拥有比任何人多的人生经历，风风雨雨，让他成为一名耀眼的巨星。他唱片的销售量无人可及，红透不只半边天了，是整个世界。

他所唱的一首歌,heal the world。让我听了不禁起鸡皮疙瘩，好感动。。他对小朋友的爱是无限的。。。
heal the world.make it a better place
for you and for me
and the entire human race
there are people dying
if you care enough for the living
make it a better place for you and for me......
另外这首歌,you are not alone....是他逝世后的代表作
所有人都利用这歌代表对他的思念及要说的话。。。。。
that you are not alone
for i'm here with you
though you're far away
i am here to stay
you are not alone
i am here with you
though we're far apart
you're always in my heart
you are not alone..........
forever......
MJ，你在我们心中的位置无人能取代
我们永远怀念你。。。
LOVE YOU MICHEAL JACKSON

HOPE CAN LIVE PEACEFUL FOREVER IN THE WORLD WHICH FAR FROM US....WISH YOU

an "experienced day"

thursday here....woah..today is really an "experienced day". the pemantau come our school and we are preparing the thing scaryly....before recess is english class.suddenly teacher call us ready for the presentation and suggest us go canteen taking breakfast first.after taking the food,we start walking with our leg go through bilik gerakan.bilik gerakan at our school is the assembly room,is also a special place for us to present what we already prepare.while we are waiting for the teachers and also pemantau..all people is guessing who is the pemantau and the pemantau is a girl or boy...my friend and me all guess is a boy.after that,we saw a beautiful lady walk in the assembly room,oic,she is the pemantau....when i see her face clearly,i already know she is not a ominious teacher....after she takes our name and also ic number,the presentation start.OMG,i really cant believe she no need us to present anything,is just call 1 by 1 and ask question,she want us answer using english....i was scared that time but i cant believe i can speak it good too!haha...the teacher ask me"y do u think english is vry important to you as a student"?me answer it"i think it is vry important to me as a student is bcuz english is a national language n i can use it at national stage n many many....later she ask me again..."can u giv me an example how u can use ur english wisely?"i said"after my studying,english bcum a good language for me to make communication to other ppl,n if i work in any company,n my client is from england or another country,i can use english to speak to them n no need a translator...the last question is"hw did improve ur english..."n i said"study more, c more english movie n learn the words n language from them,speak more to teachers n also friendss...after this,my part is finish...
tomorrow i will make cake at school,hope will suceed...haha...gambateh!

today nthg special...talk ab today...

Tuesday here,Wednesday coming....nthg hv to do between this moment.Feel like i hv to do more rivision at home or somewhere can make it...bt me r really so tired n also lazy..OMG...PMR cuming around,hw can me get good result so easy??Today is such a boring school day,every class teacher nt teaching at all,except Sejarah....these time,Sejarah bcum a subjek i like...dno all ab the thinking...mayb problem at the teacher or wat...n today gt a really suprise thing is my english teacher say to my fren n me tat she wan us present a dialog ab two girls cheer up their fren bcuz of losing in a game....OMG...although is nt a big "trouble",bt the problem is i hv to talk in front the pemantau....really dno hw to say it...teacher say that she wil giv us 15 marks on this time presenting...waoh...is really a good chance cuz tat can help our PMR result...so i accept it.N today my fren gt make a delicious cake for the KH classes...is such a good cake,i like it!~kaka....nw i jus hope my life can b more execellent n happiness......n 1 thing is i must get good result in PMR so that i can change the school easily!!!!!!!!!!
Faster,jing wen!do ur rivision nw~!
nonono.....i cant do it nw......feel sleepy...kakaka

what i'm thinking about.......

me.....is a girl oways thinking for all things.there's vry lucky i hv many best fren v me n oways chat v me.this let me really feel vry happy n appreciate...thx to you all...i love u all....