my dear cousin ar......although know my secret alrdy,dun oways ask me lar....i noe hw to handle all the things de....jus puppy love ma....no nid think too much....i noe le....haha.....hw ab you..i'm waiting for my biao sao ooo......hehe.....i noe all things study nw come first....
before this i think we two really can have a good future even is so much time.until he tell me,actually he not yet put down her,is her.my decision that start after all the stress exam is write...now i choose give him time and think who is the last answer...although i can give time,but at the same time,i feel so sad,he hope me don't mind,i said won't....but....thanks to him that be honest to me,but the feel really so sad...he said that the feel he can't put down for half a year already...but why he said all the things to me?my hope,my heart really broke painly...i know he was not lying to me,i hope can know the truth,but after that i found that me don't know what can i do...i scared the answer that he give me at the end.he said that he hope can put down the girl and start a new life,after all this.....a wall is between us....why?not yet start,but me already sad..at first what i think is all wrong..how can i face all this?he said don't know can maintain or not,reason is this...he reply me a mail...a question there"who you hope can see her now?" he write there...."is still her forever"..this sentence....
at the end,i promise he,if he can't,i'll let him go....
this is helping him or hurt myself...............?
现在慢慢进入深夜了，好有感触的一晚。今天，坏心情，被骗了，骗了。。突然觉得好多事情都和我对抗，令我觉得这个世界，我的思想，所发生的事，好烦好烦。。我想要说，我想要说，不知道自己在想些什么，为什么自己的性格令人如此反感，好讨厌。想的事情，都想得很负面，我的问题，怎么办？谁？谁能帮我？
伤心，想哭，真的。。。
当自己一个人时，真的会不自觉想好多好多，想了总会心酸。。就像我的姓，辛。。什么也辛
辛苦，心酸，心痛。。
我活在什么世界？黑白的吗？
怎样面对一切，我不知道。。。。
输了，彻底的输了，输给自己。。
输给时间，输给思想。。
朋友告诉我，学习活在快乐中，我可以很快乐
但，快乐结束了，该继续的，还是要继续
还是要面对
这就是人。。。
*我知道伤心不能改变什么，那么让我诚实一点
诚实，难免有不能控制的宣泄
只要关上了门，不必理谁
一个人做在空荡包厢里面
手机，让它休息一夜
难，像切割切掉回忆的画面，
眼泪不能留过，十二点*
最近的我，改变不大。多了好多事情，最近的心情也不会特别愉快。预考即将来临，我呢？完全还没准备好，没一科是读得完整的。我发现了一样东西，“无形的压力”。面对着预考与真正考试的我，无形的压力和我开始交起朋友。。我，想着，预考的成绩将会影响我转校的机会，我，面对真正的考试会否拿下优异的佳绩。好多好多事围绕着我。。。看着白板上一行行的字，好像都很爱我似的，都争先恐后地挤进我脑里，从今年开始，觉得老师所说的，所教的，都要把它们记在脑力，好痛苦啊。。早知如此，何必当初？好后悔当初无知的我，没好好的用功，如果每天秉持着读书，就算是那么一点的习惯，不会有今天的我。复制阿娇的一句话：“好天真，好傻”。哈哈！
明年，会是怎样的一年?感觉上，即将迈入人生成长的另一个过程，亲情，友情，好像要再加些新的东西。结果会是如何？？如果人都没烦恼，那该多好？情，亲情可贵，友情可惜，爱情呢？再想想，多几年，我们都大了，生活会是如何？大学生活？工作生活？学院生活？
明天和未来，那个先到？
珍惜眼前人，本人的座右铭，有谁未曾错过？
希望接下来的日子，闹钟的声音在我耳边旋转，缓缓地从那张温暖拥有少许余温的床，爬了起来。打开窗，我看见美好的世界，鸟儿们唱歌，寂寞的街灯也从此关上，人们都活的快乐。
期待。。。。。。。
还有我永远都爱的音乐，是我生活的主旋律。
these few days my friend from Macau visited to my house n stay for some days.they all bcum so tall n looks like me so "short",kakaka......funny thing is they all smaller thn me....OMG.....hw??accept lar....n so cute their face.......n......
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