annoyed !!!!

i'm getting crazy....sukan...this saturday...but??i still din hv the uniform!OMG....jus like have spoon but no fork....i'm not dun wan go borrow....but i reali dno who hv it...i dno all of them...all i noe one nobody got it....this problem..hw to solve?!

exam....is another annoying problem...jus left one month for us...but now my life jus fullfilled by kawat kaki...school day....homework.....tuition.....sleep ady not enuf time but now talking bout exam!i dun reali understand all the lesson that teacher had teached....chapters...things....many i hv to rmb n understand n read them...but now...if i hav free time...i'll jus sleep sleep n sleep!cuz now sleep is such a important thing for me....i nid it.....

reali a lot of thing waiting for me...anyway...i don't think so i cn handle all that...why??????

i'm reali tired...tired mind...body....all....when i think all of this...my mood will jus turn down n down....upset n upset....


recently...i understand one thing....3 ppl is impossible cn together...although they all looks gud...care each other....but....the world jus cn fill by maximun 2 ppl...this is a truth...2 ppl is the most prefect...most comfortable...nothing will easily happen....but....when there is 3 ppl....that is impossible to handle the situation...i noe...i noe sometimes they cn talk together...share things v each other....bt....if u reali observe it...u will noe..when the time u talk interesting..when the time u share sumthing reali important....the thing will jus discuss by 2 ppl...n that one will listen n listen...no any comment...watching them...finally....speechless.......finally i understand it.....n i noe...sumtimes...when u r alone...that is the most comfortable feel for u....listening song...u cn reali understand wad the song talking bout....when u r alone...ur mind will me vry vry clear....all things hv its solution....ur world is silent....no any sound....jus for u....to think n did anything u want....

already gone....

many days ago...i heard the news....that my fren frm old skul d....accident..sent in to hospital n in a vry dangerous situation....until yesterday...i heard the news again...he....passed away ad....i'm extremely sad....

i study at old skul for 3 years...he had been my classmate for 2 years....he was a cute boy..n gud attitude.....y??y the god hv to bring him away frm this world?he will chat v me...i like his smile...now....all gone......jus left our memories....
yesterday when i received the msg....wat i reply is...."pls...dun!"....at that second....my brain full of his memory.....i remember his face expression....rmb hw cute he is...rmb hw gud he is....i jus cnt believe.....a boy...16 years old...my fren....our fren.....passed away.....
i jus got a plan.....find a time i free...go bec to skul....n meet them...gather v them...bt now...even i cum bec...i cnt see him anymore....
i still rmb a night b4 he dead...i heard a song frm radio....that is kelly clarkson-already gone....a part of the song....is already gone....already gone....keep on repeat....b4 i heard this song....i never had that feel....i feel so sad when i listen...already gone....already gone....or...this is a sign....tell me...he is gonna to leave us....finally...thats the truth....sigh....

"hayei....here ching man got something wanna tell u...i hope u cn hear it....i 'll oways miss u...n all of us too....i hope u cn happi at another world....i will never forget u....my fren....hayei....i miss u so much....~~u will oways in our heart....just go...without sadness..."

waoh....finally...settle down...we r still together...

today...is quite a shock day...cuz my dear n darling quarrel le....bt nt reali quarrel using words..sms...or fb...bt is inside heart...me reali scared me will lost one of them jus like that..bt..fortunately..nothing le...

actually every person sure gt their own personality...this is cnt chg de...this is 4 the ppl who listen n talk...we r made by god...god want us to meet each other...in our life...wan us to be best frens n sisters 4eva...hw cn we ignore it...we mus appreciate it...i noe in life sure will got quarrel,bt jus quarrel n after that 4get bout it...this gt its benefit actually....quarrel btween gud fren is to make each other noe mr bout each other...then we cn more gud n gud compare thn b4 rite....??

i noe sumtimes when u hear sumthing tell frm ur best fren....u will get hurt....if talk by each other..mayb u wnt hurt so deep...bt u mus noe the feel is different...when she said like that..she is showing her love to you....same u r also receive the love frm her..this is such a quite sweet feel...dun jus easy make it negatif...

other thing....if u wan talk sumthing to ur fren.....u must try to understand wat thing she cn accept n she cnt.....if u noe the way....use the correct way....nothing will happen.....other way....u mus also giv her time to understand wat u talk....think bout it....we r human....sumtime wil jus angry like that v no reason....bt after that the person will noe u r think for her.....patient....

this is wad i wanna talk to u two......appreciate each other oo....luv u two 4eva....muackzz...

讨人厌

这次只有一句话想说，我懂，我是暴力狂，只懂伤害朋友，讨人厌。永远都不懂得改……

LON__L_ .........................

为什么我会突然想要更新部落格呢？
因为我发现……最近的我，开始没有倾诉的对象，我很怕，很孤单，没有方向……一个人……
好朋友……
家人……
我开始成了绝缘体……
为什么？为什么发现没有人……为什么发现没方向……说不清，说不出……
好多问题在这一年发生……很好的感情……感觉上已经渐渐被遗忘……
一个人的角落……有时很舒服……很平静……但……
当渴望热闹来临时……角落绝对不会发生……
今年……很多事……烦……累……崩溃……失望……伤心……说不出……不懂……迷失……救我……
老师说得没错……这年……很忧郁……我开始不懂得沟通……
今天……妈告诉我……她越来越不懂怎样才能和我好好沟通……她说……为什么最近我老是一点点就发脾气……什么都不能好好讲……不是我不要……而是我……做……不……到……
很对不起……
我自己也搞不清……我……到底怎么了……
我真的觉得很空虚……我需要某些东西……但……心里的空间依然如此的大……如此的宽……
没有东西……填满它……我感觉到……什么是空虚……孤独……孤单……很冷……
不想说话……笑了……也慢慢觉得没意思了……
我没地方可以倾诉……只想到这个方法……好几次感觉涌上心头……要哭……真的可以……
不用一秒……流了下来……谁……来……我……有……没有……？？
近来……快乐…好像和我很好……
还是……它们……在讽刺我……更加要反映给我知道……这不是事实……
请问……
有人吗……？
经过……
路过……
逗留……
离开……？
当你认为你是……其实……你……不是……


lonely seems like more n more near to me
happy seems like near too me too....
bt.......
actually is laughing towards me....
i din tel anyone.........
cuz i dno hw to tel....
hw to share......
i ady forget the way.......
the way to communicate v someone.......
the way to share.........
the way to real happy......
i noe u noe.....
bt......
noe n din noe.....
no different..........
there is black......
cold......
sound of laugh.......
sound of echo...
is my sound.....
i'm talking to myself.......
rite....
this is the truth.......

finally.....
EnD~~