already gone....

many days ago...i heard the news....that my fren frm old skul d....accident..sent in to hospital n in a vry dangerous situation....until yesterday...i heard the news again...he....passed away ad....i'm extremely sad....

i study at old skul for 3 years...he had been my classmate for 2 years....he was a cute boy..n gud attitude.....y??y the god hv to bring him away frm this world?he will chat v me...i like his smile...now....all gone......jus left our memories....
yesterday when i received the msg....wat i reply is...."pls...dun!"....at that second....my brain full of his memory.....i remember his face expression....rmb hw cute he is...rmb hw gud he is....i jus cnt believe.....a boy...16 years old...my fren....our fren.....passed away.....
i jus got a plan.....find a time i free...go bec to skul....n meet them...gather v them...bt now...even i cum bec...i cnt see him anymore....
i still rmb a night b4 he dead...i heard a song frm radio....that is kelly clarkson-already gone....a part of the song....is already gone....already gone....keep on repeat....b4 i heard this song....i never had that feel....i feel so sad when i listen...already gone....already gone....or...this is a sign....tell me...he is gonna to leave us....finally...thats the truth....sigh....

"hayei....here ching man got something wanna tell u...i hope u cn hear it....i 'll oways miss u...n all of us too....i hope u cn happi at another world....i will never forget u....my fren....hayei....i miss u so much....~~u will oways in our heart....just go...without sadness..."

waoh....finally...settle down...we r still together...

today...is quite a shock day...cuz my dear n darling quarrel le....bt nt reali quarrel using words..sms...or fb...bt is inside heart...me reali scared me will lost one of them jus like that..bt..fortunately..nothing le...

actually every person sure gt their own personality...this is cnt chg de...this is 4 the ppl who listen n talk...we r made by god...god want us to meet each other...in our life...wan us to be best frens n sisters 4eva...hw cn we ignore it...we mus appreciate it...i noe in life sure will got quarrel,bt jus quarrel n after that 4get bout it...this gt its benefit actually....quarrel btween gud fren is to make each other noe mr bout each other...then we cn more gud n gud compare thn b4 rite....??

i noe sumtimes when u hear sumthing tell frm ur best fren....u will get hurt....if talk by each other..mayb u wnt hurt so deep...bt u mus noe the feel is different...when she said like that..she is showing her love to you....same u r also receive the love frm her..this is such a quite sweet feel...dun jus easy make it negatif...

other thing....if u wan talk sumthing to ur fren.....u must try to understand wat thing she cn accept n she cnt.....if u noe the way....use the correct way....nothing will happen.....other way....u mus also giv her time to understand wat u talk....think bout it....we r human....sumtime wil jus angry like that v no reason....bt after that the person will noe u r think for her.....patient....

this is wad i wanna talk to u two......appreciate each other oo....luv u two 4eva....muackzz...

讨人厌

这次只有一句话想说，我懂，我是暴力狂，只懂伤害朋友，讨人厌。永远都不懂得改……

LON__L_ .........................

为什么我会突然想要更新部落格呢？
因为我发现……最近的我，开始没有倾诉的对象，我很怕，很孤单，没有方向……一个人……
好朋友……
家人……
我开始成了绝缘体……
为什么？为什么发现没有人……为什么发现没方向……说不清，说不出……
好多问题在这一年发生……很好的感情……感觉上已经渐渐被遗忘……
一个人的角落……有时很舒服……很平静……但……
当渴望热闹来临时……角落绝对不会发生……
今年……很多事……烦……累……崩溃……失望……伤心……说不出……不懂……迷失……救我……
老师说得没错……这年……很忧郁……我开始不懂得沟通……
今天……妈告诉我……她越来越不懂怎样才能和我好好沟通……她说……为什么最近我老是一点点就发脾气……什么都不能好好讲……不是我不要……而是我……做……不……到……
很对不起……
我自己也搞不清……我……到底怎么了……
我真的觉得很空虚……我需要某些东西……但……心里的空间依然如此的大……如此的宽……
没有东西……填满它……我感觉到……什么是空虚……孤独……孤单……很冷……
不想说话……笑了……也慢慢觉得没意思了……
我没地方可以倾诉……只想到这个方法……好几次感觉涌上心头……要哭……真的可以……
不用一秒……流了下来……谁……来……我……有……没有……？？
近来……快乐…好像和我很好……
还是……它们……在讽刺我……更加要反映给我知道……这不是事实……
请问……
有人吗……？
经过……
路过……
逗留……
离开……？
当你认为你是……其实……你……不是……


lonely seems like more n more near to me
happy seems like near too me too....
bt.......
actually is laughing towards me....
i din tel anyone.........
cuz i dno hw to tel....
hw to share......
i ady forget the way.......
the way to communicate v someone.......
the way to share.........
the way to real happy......
i noe u noe.....
bt......
noe n din noe.....
no different..........
there is black......
cold......
sound of laugh.......
sound of echo...
is my sound.....
i'm talking to myself.......
rite....
this is the truth.......

finally.....
EnD~~

my life gt all of u....ady satisfy..thx

my life...gt my lou po zai.ss....is ady enuf....love???get away from me...my life is ady full of fren's love,family's love....thats all...i appreciate it...thx to u all...lub u all!

a friend...b4 is important to me...chg n chg immediately...chg to a person that v cnt cum close v her...so hard....nothing to share btween us....doubt...argue....bo syok...keep on happen...i dno y....v jus cnt understand...all is cuz by she nt reali wanna share her sadness n happiness v us..wat cn v do?nothing v cn do if she still remain like that....now...she was jus my fren~~u knw....??

nxt wednesday...is near....that nite is a die day....i dno when my mom see my result...wat emotion n feeling was she....jus hope all wil be ok n she wil knw the reason...bt mom i promise...i'll work hard on it to make it better...i'm sorry a very worst result cum out...bt ady bcum the truth...i cnt chg anything....wat cn i chg is jus make my future mr better n better....

nw...i was really put down that....cuz i listened the truth....i knw that.....i knw all.....although stil gt a bit blur.....bt i knw....skip frm this topic...i gt a gang of lou po zai loving me....caring me....take k of me.....OMG.....i love it!!! muackzz....

we jus nt as b4....bt...is okie~i appreciate the time v had passed...thx

语：我以为我的温柔
能给你整个宇宙
我以为我能全力填满你感情的缺口
专心陪在你左右
弥补他一切的错
也许我太过天真
以为奇迹会发生
他让你红了眼眶
你却还笑着原谅
原来你早就想好你要留在谁的身旁
我以为我够坚强
却一天天地失望
少给我一点希望
希望就不是奢望……

wat mean by "friend" ??

"friend",a term for me.....nt a feel...nt a care....
who will be my friend?my best friend?
the one i care for.....i luv......i share sadness n hapiness v.....r u ?

honest....i'm those guy that fren in my heart stay a high place.....cn be even no.1....bt sumtimes i found out...someone is nt like wat i'm think....i treat the guy as my gud gud fren.....bt the guy jus make it nothing n in the guy list did not hv my name....wat for to be gud fren?just let it...now...i realise....i will not very very care bout that guy anymore....bt the guy will still be my fren...bt jus a common fren for me......no more deep love n caring....that is wat u choose~i will not regret.

those who me reali luv d dun worry.....me will nt at ur side...bt is in ur heart....okie?^^i will not forget u....will remember u....will not giv any chance for sadness to apporoach u bt jus happi life n smile...:p.....appreciate to hv u all....is my luck...muackzzz^^

语：因为你没有谁能替代
因为你在所以我存在
我不要再分开，把时间停下来，慢下来
让烟火坠不下来
因为你历史都能更改
没有你我就不要未来……

我恨你！跌倒！

渐渐的，转校到三民已经三个多月了……时间过得真快……这段时间，非常庆幸有一班好姐妹，好朋友陪伴着我，使到我的生活每天都充满笑声，欢乐~除此之外，我再也不是以前的我了，那个超酷的我，没笑容的我，感觉上难相处的我~

还记得之前和旧学校的朋友聊天~我告诉他，我变了，见过我的人都这么说……他问：“变得怎样了？”。我说我变得开朗了，会笑咯！也会开玩笑了……
他竟然回我两个字……奇迹……
以前的我真的脸上没有一丝笑容哦？好怀疑以前的我是怎么过日子的……哈哈~

言归正传，说说我恨的~跌倒！
咳！知道吗？我来了三民三个月，却跌倒了四次！不懂应该有怎样的感觉，想法~好难堪难看哦！

还记得第一次，是在食堂前面，时间是放学~在一众巡查员面前，滑倒跌了下来……当时的反应超快的，迅速的爬了起来，朋友说想上前扶我也来不及了~哈哈

第二次嘛，也是在同一个地方，但是当时有朋友扶着，还是被高高的梯级拌倒了~也不知道当时有谁看见，只想起，怎么又来啦？？？

第三次，是我印象最深刻的一次，是在篮球场靠近课室那边的那排长长的三级楼梯！还记得很清楚，那天在我们班报告可以回班时，走到一半，巡查员才报告说班长副班长们要留下来集合~那我就赶快下去啦~可是当时所有人都涌着上楼，只有我像逆流一样，和别人反方向~走廊没位置了，只好走在那窄窄的梯级，突然！拌倒了啦!!!超讨厌的！当时我也是以很快的速度爬起来，希望没太多人看见，但是往往现实是很残酷的~被隔壁班大多数的同学看见了……过了几天~听见朋友告诉我，在那时有几个人看见了，束手无策，袖手旁观，在那旁偷笑！我不是生气他们没来救我~而是自己每次自动当别人的笑柄！一开始是超介意的，但跌过了那么多次，我也不怕了……没什么感觉了~

今天，也就是第四次，sukan tara 跳高项目，跑着跑着，被草场上的水……滑倒了……整个人坐在草上，超烂的表现！回班不久后才发现跌倒时敲到旧患，我的手！隐约痛痛的……笨死了！真的很生气自己！！！

或许今年的运真的超倒霉，不好的！现在走步路都要很小心，真的好怕第五次的来临~拜托，我不要再跌倒了！！！

还有，我想知道，是谁……

语：原谅我没有说，最爱你的是我
予取予求又把温柔当附和
原谅我没有说，我给你的并不多
拥有过，却没有把握~